You da history.
yeah, it was too fun.
yeah, it was too sweet.
yeah, it was too cute.
yeah, it was a dream.
yeah, it was paradise.
yeah, it was the best.
yeah, it gave me the best feeling in the whole wide world.
yeah, it was everything that i ever wanted.
yeah, sacrificed so much that it’s crazy.
yeah, treated you better than i’ve ever treated myself.
yeah, cared for you like @#*@(*#)(*!()!@, ya knowww.
yeah, it was good times, u agree.
but ya know whattttt„„„„„„„
after all the things you’ve put me through?
i’m never going through something like this EVER again.
no one knows what “this” is, but that’s alright. don’t wanna freak them out.
i’m never going to torture and hurt myself like this anymore.
i can’t stand seeing myself do something this painful physically and mentally.
i can’t stop hiding this inner feeling which i never let out to anyone anymore.
i can’t constantly lie to people when they ask me if i’m okay.
it’s killing me and it’ll just ruin me in the end. i’m pretty sure that pain changes people and i do agree. it in fact did. it’ll be mentioned later on.
butsss, yeah… goodbye to doing all those things for my own good.
i mean, what else is there for me to say or do right?
even if i do spill my heart out, would it make a difference?
i’m guessing probably not, it won’t even be worth it.
there’s this quote and it says, “if you could read my mind, you would be in tears”.
i’m sure if you could, you really would be.. in tears. no
lies. no exaggerations. you really would. i swear you would.
but now that it’s finally clear to me who you really are.
i guess the person i’ve always thought you were..
was just all my own imagination.
oh silly silly me, but it’s okay.
it’s cool, really.
“after all we’ve been through, i know we’re cool”.
we are, trust me. we really are. zhen dehh.
it’s up to you how you want to leave it.
remember what you asked me in the end?
you asked me something and without answering..
i asked YOU and you responded. i hope we could go with the answer you gave.
anyhow.. i’m fine now, and i’ll be okay.
thanks for making me stronger than before. that’s what changed.
thanks for making me realize how strong i can actually be to have to go through all this.
^_^+ i can be proud and mature enough to say that i forgive you.
i hope you see this, i do.